erin2326: (dw-not good)
posted by [personal profile] erin2326 at 11:40pm on 29/04/2009 under
Oh, flist. I am very tired. I managed to get my big bang ready to submit, and now I'm stuck on the damn summary, which is never going to get written, because everything I write sounds like something out of the badfic hall of fame.

For instance:

Spencer Smith’s routine never varied, day to day. Get up, go to work, go home and go to bed. He had an orderly and tidy life, and things were good.

Things were okay.

All right, things were kind of terrible, and Spencer suffered in a mental institution for it. But he made it through and now he’s back out, trying to find his place in the world again.

Life was okay. Or at least it was going to be.

Can Spencer find love after life in a mental institution? Will he succumb to the pressures of routine? Will he ever manage to shake the feeling that his life is being narrated by an old for trees woman with the sinus headache from hell?

All these questions and more will be answered if you read this story!

All right, I added the part in italics when I was starting to get punch drunk, but you get the idea. This shouldn't be more difficult than actually writing the story, and yet.
Mood:: 'frustrated' frustrated
Music:: Curl Up and Die - Reliant K
erin2326: (random-Jensen in black and white)
This isn't the sort of thing you see on my journal much anymore, but my girls requested it, and I love them a lot, and they kept me around even when I went over to the dark side, so. ♥

Okay, gotta get back to my Big Bang, OH GOD I'M NEVER GONNA FINISH.
Mood:: 'busy' busy
erin2326: (bandom-Frank & coffee)
I have one goal tonight. Get my big bang in decent order. It's currently sitting at 18,871 words, but it's missing a sex scene (because I hate writing them) that should tip it over the limit, and then I have to edit the shit out of it.

It doesn't have to be perfect, but it needs to be not so terrible that my mixer wants to kill themselves when they get it.

I suspect it'll be covered with notes like, "CHANGE THIS, YOU FUCKING IDIOT, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?" but you know, they'll get the idea.

Wish me luck, flist! I'm at the finish line, finally!
Music:: Southern State - Bright Eyes
Mood:: 'working' working
erin2326: (random-complicated)
posted by [personal profile] erin2326 at 11:49am on 11/03/2009 under , , , ,
  • Last night I was craving comfort food, so I made this casserole my grandma always used to make where she'd making stuffing and put it in a casserole dish, put unbreaded chicken tenders on top, then cover it with cream of chicken soup and bread crumbs, and it was delicious technology 100%! Also super easy, which I appreciate, since while making this I managed to forget to oil the casserole dish so it wouldn't stick, and also to preheat the oven. I have faith that one day I'll be less of a cooking disaster, but today is not that day.

  • I am fairly confident that my Big Bang is total badfic. Here's a question, actually. Is issue fic ever not badfic? And would attempted suicide qualify as issue fic? Because I think I'm fucked on two levels there.

  • I went to bed last night will all the windows in the house open, because my house stores heat like an oven and it was ridiculously stuffy in the house, and then woke up at 3:00am to pouring rain and it was FREEZING and had to walk through the house closing it up. Not on, weather.

  • Yogurt + fresh strawberries + granola = A++ food combination!

  • I like even numbers, and even though five isn't an even number, it feels like it should be.
  • Music:: Dashboard Confessional - Carve Your Heart Out Yourself | Powered by
    Mood:: 'calm' calm
    erin2326: (bandom-Brendon is a dork)
    posted by [personal profile] erin2326 at 12:19pm on 10/03/2009 under
    Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
    10,083 / 20,000


    It's total badfic, but I don't even care right now.
    Mood:: 'chipper' chipper
    Music:: Cat Stevens - The Wind | Powered by
    erin2326: (dw-horizon)
    posted by [personal profile] erin2326 at 11:22pm on 26/01/2009 under ,
    I've pissed a lot of people off today. It felt strangely liberating.

    Why are people asking for betas for their Big Bangs already? The first draft isn't even due until April. If they're already finished, then I'm hating them forever. I only have 8,000 words, damn it.

    My dog is sleeping on my bedroom floor and his ear is twitching. It's adorable.
    Mood:: 'calm' calm
    erin2326: (bandom-Spencer is ridiculously beautiful)
    Things that are good about today:

  • President Obama (!!!) started the process of shutting down the Guantánamo Bay trials.

  • He's still President Obama. It's real!

  • I wrote 2,000 more words on my Big Bang.

  • It's only 11:00, so that's all I've got, but I'm hopeful about the rest of the day.

    Also, in case anyone missed, if you want to be on my Bandom Big Bang filter, here's the poll.
    Mood:: 'chipper' chipper
    Music:: This Mess We're In - P.J. Harvey and the Radiohead guy
    erin2326: (bandom-Spencer in b&w)
    So I scrapped my private detective Big Bang idea. I couldn't sleep last night and I was trying to figure out the plot, and I had absolutely nothing. But I had another idea that I really like, I'm just not sure I can pull it off. I have no illusions about my writing ability (and this is not when you're supposed to jump in and tell me what a great writer I am, because seriously, I'm fine with just being an okay writer) and this plot may need a better hand than mine. But I'm going to give it a go. It would be stupid if I didn't try, just because it makes me nervous.

    I realized I have no Brendon/Spencer icons. I really need to rectify that. Especially since I have two Brendon/Jon icons, and that's my very least favorite pairing.

    I had something else to talk about and it flitted right out of my head.

    Oh! Only FIVE days until Obama takes office! Only five more days of George W. Bush at the helm, fucking all our shit up. The end is in sight, guys. We can make it.
    Music:: The Take Over, The Break's Over - Fall Out Boy
    Mood:: 'awake' awake
    erin2326: (random-crack!fic)
    I have 2,000 words of the most implausible, ridiculous fic ever for Big Bang. Seriously, it's just dumb, and makes no sense whatsoever. Spencer and Ryan are private detectives and they're hiring Brendon as their secretary. I ripped that off, I'll admit it. But it makes NO SENSE. Ryan and Spencer are PRIVATE DETECTIVES? How dumb is that? If this thing gets written it's going to be like a bad romance novel, no lie.

    My cat is all curled up on my dog right now, and it's the cutest thing I've ever seen. She is actually laying on his legs. I love my animals.
    Mood:: 'amused' amused
    Music:: XO - Fall Out Boy


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